one bill paid off. WOOT! i’m a step closer to not owing any niggas any money.

ugh. i like him again. wtf?

:-/

every fiber of my being is telling me that july will be MY month. i feel it.

i have nothing but faith in what is to come and i embrace it completely. 

i believe that i have received this feeling that i have. amen.

houston, i believe we have a problem. almost had a mental breakdown.

my iphone 4 went unresponsive and thanks to good ol’ google, i brought it back up. time to save all my crap before i lose all of my pictures and whatnot.

O_O

so i’ve been trying to change my default availability for work for over three weeks now, and it keeps getting rejected. i no longer want to work on sunday’s nor do i want to close and one of the managers there KEEPS rejecting it. i mainly don’t want to work on sunday’s anymore due to the fact that i haven’t been to church since may 27th and i hate closing now. i want to know why it keeps getting rejected. so i called and i have to get the “ok” from one of my managers in order for this to go through. O_O

really? they doing too damn much over there.

i’m glad, i called in sick today and i’m glad i’m only working once next week. i can’t take their bs.

so much for wanting a relaxing day off. i have so much to do now. O_O

when did standing up for what you believe in and not taking anyone’s bs equal a threat for getting written up for alleged insubordination?

apparently, i’m rocking the boat at work and i have since our last meeting. so my managers aren’t too pleased with me. :shrug:

i wasn’t supposed to put work issues on any social network. :look: i’ve been doing this for HOW LONG? hahah there’s instagram, facebook, AND my tumblr page that i’ve been posting all of this on.

and to think, i tried to ignore the bs that this young girl has caused for over a month and a half. what hella pissed me off was the fact that this little girl insinuated that i was jealous of her and her new position. O_O right. i went to a four-year school and got my bachelors degree and plan on going back to grad school, yet i’m jealous of YOU. hahaha that’s still laughable. anyway, that’s what set me off and resulted in me punching a locker at work.

an excerpt from a conversation i had on fb:

Smh. The fact that a position can go to your head and make you power hungry, boggles my mind.

that is ALL i said and i got called off the floor yesterday, 30 minutes after i started my shift. i didn’t deny it either. i also got laughed at when i was asked why i’m still working there. no boo-boo, i’m not here because i love my job, i’m here because this is what’s paying the bills at the moment.

i don’t want to re-live yesterday again, because i’ll get heated. i have to go into work later at 5p and see a handful of people that i don’t care too much for.

ah, working underemployed in retail. ain’t it grand? :-/

graduate schools in public health/health care administration that i’m looking at:

• cal state east bay
• san jose state
• san francisco state
• uc berkeley

putting good vibes and my prayer into the universe. prayfully, my prayer will be answered shortly.

“why does it seem like ardella’s acting more black?”

“because she is.”

this was a conversation that my sister and cousin had earlier.

i wasn’t aware that you could act a color. but i guess it’s because i’m acting “ghetto” O_O i guess.

i tried to be nice and brush the first issue off and leave it alone, but this cunt done went and pissed me the hell off for the second and FINAL time. i’m tired of retail and the drama that it brings into my life.

i punched the locker in the break room because of some garbage that i overheard. i’m trying my best to calm the hell down, but it isn’t helping. thankfully, my hand is alright. i can’t afford to go to the hospital over something that i may have caused. especially since i don’t have insurance.

this blogging group on facebook is making me want to buy my old domain and blog again.

can i go back to vegas please? an all expenses paid for a weekend trip would be excellent.

i’ve caught the travel bug and i desperately need to escape for a weekend or two. or even a week… or two..

O_O

my credit limit with my VS card was raised again. tempted to buy hella stuff.

must. fight. the. urge.

i hate when people pry in my personal life. including family. and my sister has a problem with me not talking to my family about my dating life.

yeah, i learned my lesson with that.